Episode 79
Lillian Karain opened her eyes. The elaborately layered ceiling of wood filled her vision, with the alcoholic smell of disinfectant assaulting her nose.
‘Head… … .’
My head is still pounding. The shock caused by magic was nullified, but the shock received from the bounced reflection did not seem to disappear.
‘At that time, why did I… … .’
It was then that I felt the presence of a person, accompanied by a drowsy yawn.
“Are you awake now? “I would have just left even if it was just 5 minutes later.”
In an instant, my body went into a state of alert, and my magic power was activated as if it were seething. Lillian’s eyes narrowed.
“What are you?”
In the darkness, black hair as smooth as silk can be seen. Through that gap, the red eyes that symbolize the clan emit a faint light.
Ludwig, Lane Ludwig.
The person who had made Lillian’s condition a mess was standing up and stretching in the hospital bed across from her. It felt like I woke up from sleep.
“It looks fine. “You’re still fierce and brave.”
“What are we going to do now?”
“I just came to check on the condition at someone’s request, but it seems it was all for naught. Don’t worry. “I’m going.”
As I looked at that irresponsibly naive voice and the languid movements that made my fists tremble, a hot anger welled up inside me.
“If you came here to laugh, don’t worry and laugh as much as you want!”
That’s why the moment Lane put his hand on the door of the infirmary, that’s why the flagship exploded. Lane’s hand suddenly stopped.
“Have fun, right? Isn’t it fun? Look at me. Ever since I heard those words from you, I have been completely shattered. “Aren’t you here to see this?”
“?”
“I have been living with the sole intention of getting revenge on that bastard… … Now I don’t know what to do… … .”
As I poured out the anger that had been stored deep in my heart, tears that I hadn’t shed since I was five came out along with it.
Lane asked. Do you respect your father? Otherwise, why are you following the path your father lived?
It was a point that could not be refuted. So the moment she heard those words, she felt like her mind had turned completely white.
‘Even though I hated my father so much, am I actually taking after him?’
So what kind of results can be achieved at the end of that path? Wouldn’t it just become a second stage?
“I want… … .”
Looking at Lillian wiping away the tears that would not dry, Raine sighed as if she was embarrassed.
‘I’m not good at this.’
If it were Listana Friede, I would have approached her first and given words of comfort and encouragement to boost her confidence, but the problem is that I am not that type of person.
I do not know such comfort.
I can’t give that kind of encouragement.
However, if there is anything I can give, it would be the experience I gained from living one more life than these juniors.
“Humans cannot choose their past, so it is natural that it cannot be helped. How to be born, what kind of family to choose… … “Everything goes according to what they call fate.”
“But—!”
“But, it’s not the future.”
future… … At those superficial rhetoric, something unbearably heavy rose up in Lillian’s chest and pressed against her windpipe.
“Stop talking about comfort! future? Draw the future you want? “Do you, born into a harmonious family, know anything about my situation?”
“… … .”
“I originally wanted to live like that too… … I wanted to live an ordinary and simple life, envisioning the future! Do you think I would want to live like this?”
Without realizing it, the hand holding my heart trembles. I could clearly feel the echoes of sadness that had accumulated over ten years.
“But the blood I was born with… … The fate of this cursed head will never let me go… … You can never escape until you tie the knot… … There’s no way you would know… … .”
Why? This was the first time I complained about my fate to someone. Why did you say that?
Her life was one in which she should not expect sympathy from anyone. Her life was like a sacrifice that had to be performed for her lifelong atonement and revenge.
But, why did he say this? What answer are you hoping for, what situation are you hoping for… … At that time, an unexpected voice was heard.
“I know. “I was similar to you.”
The eldest son of a wealthy family and one of the most powerful families in the empire raised his head to refute what he knew. I raised my gaze to protest.
But, it was like that.
The moment our eyes met in mid-air, I couldn’t say anything, as if I had been hit by something.
“Maybe it could have been more miserable.”
Why on earth?
How on earth?
Is it because in the eyes of the boy who smiles bitterly as he looks at her, there is a sadness that we can’t even guess his heart?
“What if all you have is a painful past? “Then there are a lot of areas that can be filled with a happy future.”
I couldn’t believe my eyes. Except her mother, no one had ever looked at her like this.
It was a look in his eyes that said he understood you. It was a voice that said it knew all about your pain. It was a warmth that only a human with a heart could show.
That’s why I didn’t want to accept it. Those eyes, that sound… … .
“When things are too difficult and painful, don’t just look ahead, look to the side or back. “The advice for juniors ends here.”
I couldn’t ask the meaning of that smile or the meaning of the word junior. At that very moment, the door burst open and a crowd of five or six people poured in.
“Lillian!”
“Sister Lillian!”
A robe with the image of a dragon embroidered with red thread on a pure white background… … They were classmates from the Rivendell School. They were all young wizards.
“I’m late because I had to get permission from the dean.”
“That stubborn guy won’t even give me permission to visit the health room… … !”
The students of Rivendell looked at Raine with puzzled eyes, but soon showed their respect with a light nod and then looked back at Lillian.
“Why are you… … ?”
Lillian asked, dumbfounded. She always kept her cold expression, but perhaps because of the conversation with Lane, she was unable to suppress her emotions.
“Because, it’s natural that you came because you were worried, you obnoxious bastard.”
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“You deliberately withheld your wish so as not to embarrass the Warden family? I know everything! Even if my sister used her powers properly, a golem like that would be just one hit!”
Since childhood, Lillian has lived without forming relationships by minimizing interactions with others.
However, he didn’t just ignore me completely, he gave simple answers to questions about magic from his classmates.
That’s why she didn’t pretend to be close to anyone, but she also thought she wasn’t close to anyone… … Just like Rin did in the distant past.
“No, I don’t understand. “I don’t know why you came to see me and why you’re making such a fuss.”
Then the students blinked and exchanged glances, and the cheerful-looking kid shouted as if it was even more absurd.
“You are our idol, right? So, this reaction is natural.”
“why me.”
“Refreshing, cool, and capable! It’s the pride of our school! “When dealing with people from other schools, if you even mention my sister’s name, they get very nervous.”
Then, the young man who appeared to be the eldest hit the boy on the head as if he could not stop him, and the students burst into laughter.
“You should use your abilities to show off your power, why did you sell Lillian?”
Then the young man looked back at Lillian with a wry smile. And he spoke softly.
“I can’t speak out because I’m worried about the dean and elders, but there are a lot of people who follow you in the school, Lillian.”
“?”
“Because most of us know how you’ve grown… … “It may have been sympathy at first, but now it’s mostly respect.”
Is this a deception? Could it be a trap that that bastard created to test me?
No, not to say that… … .
Now, these guys aren’t that good at acting, and from every facial expression they show… … .
“So don’t be too impatient. “Because most of the school is waiting for you to return.”
Lane quietly left the room and leaned outside the door, eavesdropping on the conversation. At that moment, he felt a chill shaking his brain.
– We’ll all be waiting for the day you come back, Rin… … .
Because on the day I left on my journey, I remembered the voice of the Grand Master who had made the Magic Tower cry. With the pain piercing his lungs.
‘Look, you’re similar to me… … .’
If I had known that the school guys would come like that in the first place, I wouldn’t have made such an embarrassing speech, but I did something useless because of Logan.
“that’s right! “As long as you don’t get impatient, a senior position is nothing to you!”
There was no need to tell me directly.
Don’t just look ahead, take a good look around you… … He’s a capable guy, so he’ll understand right away. It’s hard when you realize it too late like I did.
Lane quietly walked into the darkness of the hallway, as if hiding a sad smile.
Socrafres.
– You can inherit your ‘unique magic’ research progress in the surrounding environment.
– Progress 48.1% -> 49.2%.
In these footsteps, we get one step closer to the truth without even realizing it.
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“… … “What about your mother?”
Lillian, who was in the middle of the students’ uproar, cautiously raised her voice. The older young man answered.
“You’re getting healthy. Since you weren’t there, the dean didn’t really touch anything. Should I say that I am not interested at all?”
For Dadan, the girl’s mother was merely a tool for childbirth and education. That’s why she always treated her like a tool, not a person.
“okay? thank god… … .”
Although I breathed a sigh of relief, I couldn’t feel completely relieved. He’s lost his chief position twice, so there’s no telling what else that crazy man will do.
“Oh, and there is something my wife told me to tell you secretly from the Dean.”
“mother?”
“Don’t worry about you, he said he hopes you make a lot of good friends and have a happy school life.”
With my heart trembling, I pondered over the young man’s message from his mother.
‘friend? happiness? ‘In my life?’
While she was perplexed by the list of words she had never dreamed of, the young man smiled and lightly patted Lillian’s shoulder.
“I don’t know what I’ll hear if it’s too late, so we’ll just leave. “See you again tomorrow, Lillian.”
After everyone left the infirmary, Lillian sat alone for a long time.
Outside the window, the four moons were shooting out dazzling beams of light as if singing together, coloring the world in silver.
How long had it been like that? For the first time in almost ten years, a small smile appeared on the girl’s lips.
‘This is ridiculous… … .’
If someone else had told me the same thing, I would have ignored it. Let alone ignoring it, they would not have even heard it.
‘But why… … .’
Lane’s story was a story that lacked rationality because it did not fit the framework of logic.
Nevertheless, nevertheless.
The story Lane told me had an inexplicable persuasiveness that seemed to pluck a string hidden deep in my heart.
– Don’t just look ahead, look sideways and behind you.
– You have a ton of people following you.
– What if it was just a painful past? All you have to do is fill it with a more enjoyable future.
Somewhere deep within my soul, a handful of core seemed to be melting away. It felt like the fog that had been encroaching on my mind had cleared and my son-in-law had become clearer.
‘I thought I had to force everyone into submission… … Was there another way?’
fantasy,
